A Spark

Changing the world. Is it too big of a dream ? To actually do something that the lives of people all around the world, and have them remember you for it. To have your name recorded forever in the annals of time of the dusty pages of history. This sudden inspiration came from literally out of nowhere, and everywhere at once. In the 3th century AD, there came a self proclaimed "Prophet" called Mani. This Mani just appeared out of nowhere and changed the status quo overnight. At a time where the worship of twin gods was the fashion in Persia, Mani proclaimed love and equality for everyone and respect of all gods. And the fascinating part of his story was that the Emperor of the time allowed him to preach his sermons all over his empire, even though it was in direct conflict with the state's official religion. His religion, Manicheasnism, grew into a world religion that rivaled Christianity in strength. Nowadays, no one remembers Mani or what he has achieved through his lifetime, but just one person changed the world by his hand. Is it too ambitious to dream of that ?

Today I went to a hospital to visit an old and sick relative. I was struck and amazed by just how....beautiful the place was. All over the place the name of Allah was literally everywhere. On the walls, in paintings, in every Qu'ran put in every room and even written the exterior of the building itself. What ruined that experience was finding my old aunt in a room all buy herself. A very old and wised woman, she was diagnosed with cancer a while ago, and in and out of the hospital it was for her. The thing is she was all by herself. Completely alone. Is this how it all ends ? In a hospital room by myself ? What will my legacy be ? Right, I leave my children and their children to this life after giving birth to them, but is that all ? I mean, what happened to the Muslim civilization of days old ? I read and see what these people have done in the past and I think; why not me ? What am I doing to deserve their recognition ? How can I change the world ? And the more I think of it, the more I just draw... a blank. I need purpose and direction, neither of which I can find here and now.

(This post was written on the 1st of December 07. The aunt I mentioned passed away a couple of weeks ago. May God bless her and guide her into heaven.) 

Overheard

Explaining a Breakup To a Gamer

SergioThree: there's other fish in the sea, man, she's just a girl.
Beatsfromkorea: no dude, that's bullshit.
Beatsfromkorea: Think of it this way. if your precious copy of street fighter third strike broke and i told you "it's ok man, there's other games in the sea. here, play mortal kombat instead" what would you say? you'd be like, "fuck that, gimme third strike."
SergioThree: ...
SergioThree: you just reached me on a level that i never thought possible.

How I Imagine Job Interviews

Real Businessman: What would your friends say is your best quality?
Me: Well, I think they'd say that I have a great sense of humor.
RB: Really? Make me laugh.
Me: You mean, like, tell you a joke?
RB: Yeah, sure.
Me: O- okay. Knock knock--
RB: Get the fuck out of my office.

Sometimes You Just Have to Die Before You're Appreciated...

Caveman 1: Hey check this thing out, it's shaped like a circle and it moves around easier than big rocks.
Caveman 2: What are you gonna use it for?
Caveman 1: I don't know, but I'm gonna call it a wheel, just remember I invented the wheel.
Caveman 2: It's really not that great, what are you gonna do with it?
Caveman 1: I don't know dude, wheel it around I guess, shut up! You're always nay-saying! You did this when I invented the plate too!
Caveman 2: Well the wheel is the same thing as a plate, the only difference is it has a hole in the middle.
Caveman 1: Yeah, you're right, it's really not that great is it?
Caveman 2 : No, not really
Caveman 1: Wanna go kill a Woolly Mammoth?
Caveman 2: F*ck. Yes.

Orignally from here, here and here.

Exams in a week. Pray for me. Laterz.

Song of the Moment
Make Me Better- Fabulous feat. Ne-Yo

Ch-Ch-Check it Out

Is it just me, or are there not alot of Saudis blogging in English anymore ? I know I'm one of those who abandoned their writings due to the realities of everyday life, but come on people. I opened up my blogs bookmark page, and half of the blogs there havent been updated for months, and quarter actually deleted. Kudos to those who still keep their blogs up and running, even if the updates are few and far in between.

Now to the subject at hand, the point of this post. Err....there isn't really one. Sorry to disappoint. Not in the mood to study anything, thought I'd be able to come up with something here. Let's see :

• Teachers cheat. Maybe they'll send us some for our exams ?
• Kids are sick nowadays. So very very sick.

I'm thinking of writing something for my school yearbook. Leave my mark somehow. No idea what to write about though. Thoughts people ? If anyone's still reading this anyways, ideas would be appreciated. Later.

Song of the Moment
Return Of The Tres- Delinquent Habits

At Peace

119 days. I haven't been here for 119 days. That was the last time I wrote anything, and that was the last time I've been on this site. Where have I been ? Around I guess... Here and there. Dealing with life as we all do. Lots of stuff have happened this past year which have... hampered my desire for writing. Hell I've been out of everything. Just leave my MSN window open and talk to people when I feel like it. Still struggling through senior year and all the baggage coming with it. The teachers and studies and applications to colleges..... and the list goes on.

But today was different. Today was somehow, the first time I've felt at peace, truly at peace, for as long as I remember. It started normally enough : Woke up, dragged myself out of the bed, went to school, did my quizzes and went to my periods. Then I went to pick up a copy of my report card from the student counselor. And we got to talking. An hour passed by, and I'm still sitting at his desk, listening to him recount stories of his children and how they turned out in his eyes. I mean, this man didn't even know I existed before a couple of weeks ago, and he's recounting me personal things that someone in my position was not entitled to for any reason. Yet there I was, sitting on a leather chair and listening intently. I left the guy's office in peace. Don't how, don't know why. I just did.

Anyways, just wanted to share that. Most of you think I'm some kind of wuss now. Think again bitches. And don't expect any constant updates too. I'll update when I damn well feel like it. Later peeps

Song of the Moment:
I Tried- Bone Thugs N Harmony